Saturday, March 20, 2010

Just saying HI!!!

I am still here, recovering, getting stronger every day and very grateful for all of you and your wonderful, loving comments!!!!!!!! Last week my surgeon here put in a port for my chemo which starts in a week. Actually took 1 1/2 hours to find a vein for the IV and 3 nurses and only 45 min for the actual insertion! Figures. I'm a little freaked by this piece of plastic in my chest and the chemicals they're going to put in but the alternatives seem to be worse so...we do what we have to do. I just got my stitches out yesterday and everything looks good.

AND my model (Katie) came over a couple of days ago and put a saddle on my Dommie and one on Duke and we RODE!! It was wonderful even though we kept it at a walk (ok, I did a little trotting too). The horses were so happy to be out in the field. The sun was out and no bugs and it was a perfect day! Of course right now my legs feel like rubber and I'm a little sore but it certainly did my spirit good!! We topped off St. Patrick's Day with a potluck at my riding instructor's house (Nance) for all the horse ladies (and two horse guys!) and I got to see everyone for the first time in months! Truly a day to remember. Even though I've been exhausted since then--sooooo worth it!!!!

Next Thursday Gary and I are driving down to NYC for my first checkup since the surgery. At least this time I will be able to walk around and see some of the city so I'm looking forward to that! I'm taking pictures this time so my posts won't be so boring!!

Meanwhile, love to all of you--I can't tell you how much your comments mean to me!

xo Cait

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

I'm Back!

Wow, what a rollercoaster the past two months have been. I am home. I'm touched by all your comments and all the healing thoughts and love coming my way! I got out of our local hospital in Potsdam two weeks ago after spending a week there for an abscess that they apparently missed during the last trip to Sloan Kettering when they were obsessing over my bowels (which are fine, thank you). I kept wondering why I was feeling poorly and had in fact been doing less and less instead of more! Finally Gary came down to my Mom's and took me home where I stayed for a couple of days, realized I had a temp again and went to the emergency room. They operated that day and finally I am feeling better though a little freaked out by the hole in my surgical scar that has to heal from the inside out. Hmmmm...amazing what you can get used to.

Food is still an issue, in that I don't want any. Living on potato, noodles, mac and cheese, an egg once in a while (though I shared my egg this morning with the dog). I do get hungry once in a while but still don't want to eat. It's so weird--nothing tastes the same. So while I like being lighter it's a little freaky to not want to eat. I'm a work in progress!!

I have not been feeling very creative lately but hopefully that will come back and I can reopen my Etsy shop. Noah says that he will help me do mailings...actually Noah has been just a wonderful help over the last two months...I'm so happy he took this year off between HS and college! He has also been driving me whereever I need to go when Gary is at work!

Soooooo. I'm resting, trying to eat, looking at looms full of scarves and material that have been sitting there since I got sick. I'm grateful for my family and friends and all the support I have gotten. I start chemo on April 1, once a week for three weeks out of four, for 6 months.

AND my Adam is marrying his Alicia on September 5th!!!!! Right now they are in Hawaii but will come back for the wedding. We are so excited and I love Alicia! YAY! So something very special to look forward to!!!

Hope everyone is healthy and happy!!!!!!!